New Song!

I honestly think this is my best hip hop / rap instrumental track yet. I have set the rights to “Creative Commons” and put this up for free WAV download. I encourage you to rap on it and upload it to your own SoundCloud channel.:) If you do, please tag @teaganbear in the description or write “prod. Teaganbear” in the title somewhere. Cheers yo!

P.S. I have been COMPLETELY re-thinking compression times (long attack, short release now) and avoiding over-using EQs, and by trying these things I’ve figured out how to get the “loud yet clean” sound I’ve wanted for ages…. VERY STOKED.😄

Zero the Hero (Love=God=Infinity)


Mysticism is at the core of every religion. At the heart of all life is a MYSTERY, a QUESTION, not an ANSWER.

Spiritual reality is very simple.

Every single FINITE (defined) CONSCIOUS INDIVIDUAL (I AM) is a part of the INFINITE (undefined) COLLECTIVE CONSCIOUS WHOLE (LOVE).

I like to imagine it this way. Imagine each line segment is an I.


A circle has “infinite” sides, or no sides.😉 But every one of these sides is an I, an ego.

The point is that LOVE is not an I AM. LOVE becomes whatever the I’s make it. LOVE is an adaptable, flexible, undefinable, INFINITE (non-finite, no form) entity. It is NIRVANA/SUPREME BEING/ULTIMATE/WHOLE.

This is why LIFE is what you make it, and there is no escaping yourself – your conscious observations and decisions. ATTITUDE is everything in life.

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away.

That quote is from 1 Corinthians in the Christian Bible (NIV) but I suggest that people who identify as Christian overcome the ideas that Jesus is Lord, that the Bible is the literal word of God, and that God is in charge of us. I believe these are human assumptions that are incorrect. (GOD never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease) 

“Whoever does not love does not know God, because God is love.”

1 John 4:8

So that means that we can do this:

God is patient, God is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. 7 It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

GOD never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away.

It is thus inconsistent to believe that God punishes or hates or gives “tough love” to anyone. It is more accurate to say that we manipulate Love/God into what we choose (whether consciously or not), and it doesn’t always make us happy.

Love is always there for all egos, no matter what spiritual state the egos are in. 


I’m undefinable!

Give up defining yourself – to yourself or to others. You won’t die. You will come to life. And don’t be concerned with how others define you. When they define you, they are limiting themselves, so it’s their problem. Whenever you interact with people, don’t be there primarily as a function or a role, but as the field of conscious Presence. You can only lose something that you have, but you cannot lose something that you are.”
Eckhart Tolle, A New Earth: Awakening to Your Life’s Purpose

God = Being = Infinity = Nothingness = Us = Me = You = Everyone = Consciousness = Life

Things I’ve learned this week: Everyone is God – God is Being. But God/Being is ultimately Silence. Consciousness can make noise, consciousness can make music, or consciousness can be silent so that it can listen.:) There is a great silence listening to us all. 

The PDF above is amazingly to-the-point and clear. Scientific and philosophical minds alike will find it… clear and fitting with reality.

this stings.

Universal Love 

Do not pretend that you love others as yourself. Unless you have realized them as one with yourself, you cannot love them. Don’t pretend to be what you are not, don’t refuse to be what you are. Your love of others is the result of self-knowledge, not its cause. Without self-realization, no virtue is geniune. When you know beyond all doubting that the same life flows through all that is and you arethat life, you will love all naturally and sponataneously. When you realize the dept and fullness of your love of yourself, you know thatevery living being and the entire universe are included in your affection. But when you look at anything as separate from you, you cannot love it for you are afraid of it. Alienation causes fear and fear deepens alienation. It is a vicious circle. Only self-realization can break it. Go for it resolutely.

An excerpt from :

Ouch, that stings. And thoughts about this kind of thing have been stressing me out lately. I grew up in a Christian family that was very insistent on helping others and loving others as yourself, even your enemies. We did it because it was in the Bible, and because we wanted to feel good about ourselves, not so much for the other person IMHO. This never made sense to me, because from an egoistic perspective how can you possibly love a character (e.g. one of your enemies) that has nothing that you love about them? However, this was just me not knowing what love is.

I think the confusing part of this sentence, where people assume, is the “self” part. Christianity promotes loving others as you love yourself. But what is the self? And what if you no longer believer your “self” just to be your individual consciousness, brain, and body? What if you believe that the “self” is actually just One Being that is coming in and out of life, defying time, defying space, working on Creation from a vantage point that it does not even recognize when it is playing in the game. What if you believe the Self to be every living being that has ever or will ever exist, what if you believe that Mother Nature is alive and taking care of us but yet ultimately is us because we are all the Being vibrating in many different ways?

So with that terrifying, mind-blowing perspective of believing myself to be the eternal witness / the Soul / the One who is Conscious, that leaves me to wonder… well am I alone? are all these other animals just versions of me that are just as alone as me? with our differences, how can we all come together?

And the very fact that I identify with other animals AS being myself, because I see so many conscious processes (thoughts, emotions, etc) going on with them that I can relate to from my own experiences…. this fact confuses the shit out of me because how can you love others if you think they’re you, aren’t you just loving you? isn’t that just ultimately self-centered? or perhaps this is the ULTIMATE TRUTH, the answer, is that there is no escape from yourself because you/we have always been. Our true self is formless/changeable, and we/I have just been running from ourself for infinity. I doubt it will stop. Every time we/I die, we go back to eternal peace/silence, and eventually get restless and have to create again. Just a hunch.😉 based on my experiences with people/psychology/psychedelics.

Maybe modern Christianity has gone off the rails, and the original message was to “view the world as a part of you”. Eckhart Tolle states that to love is to “Recognize the self in another.” If the self is the only conscious being, and one does not see others as separate, then Love has total different meaning. It stops being a reluctant guilty action of “there’s more than one living being in the world so I have to accommodate others” and starts becoming a “holy crap, we are all connected in ways we can’t imagine, why would I want to hurt any of these other lives/egos/stories that I’ve created?”

The part that still makes me doubt day-to-day is whether or not I am loving other living beings because I believe them to be myself in other forms, or because I actually believe that no matter what they are, they are as important as me. I think the latter is more true and pure, and the first makes me start thinking and worrying about whether or not I’m selfish and whether or not the whole universe is a neverending chaotic hellhole. ;) 

You could argue that love is a survival mechanism, that we survive better with it and that it’s nothing more than just a random quirk of natural selection, and there is no ultimate deep meaning in it.

I disagree. Every human understands LOVE to be a higher power than anything of the mind. Love is why we’re here. Love is what we are. Love is what we believe in. Love is what we will return to. Love is unconditional and we cannot fail at this, there’s just infinite ways we can go about doing it, and some paths we will enjoy more, some less.

The biggest problem I see with love is that people forget it’s unconditional. They think if they do not love others sufficiently, then they themselves are undeserving of love. They avoid other people